Pretty straight forward topic right well it’s a pretty simple reason. Not that I think I’m below it because I’m not I just don’t want to.
I’m not that desperate yet soon but not yet I have given myself the absolute cut off date of April 8th if I haven’t got a job by then, then I will suck it up and go get a job in retail or yikes at the call center. I am not beyond knowing that I need to pay rent and I need to pay bills, and right now that might just be going out and putting my pride on the line and working somewhere I have already done. In other words a step backwards, Oh well we all do what we have to do.
As you can tell I’m miss positivity as usual, not really I’m having a very hard week. Lots of self doubt, questioning previous decisions and wondering if I am ever going to be employed again.
I put out some more resumes today, updated my resume and took another course. productive but I’m in a funk and I need to get out because I’m liking the me I am right now.
I’m going to try to blog every day this week, need an outlet to get my emotions out or I’m liable to explode which I have done “sorry mom”. Unfortunately for her she has been bearing the brunt of my frustrations.
She’s just trying to be loving and supportive and I look at as being the exact opposite and worse yet being complacent with the circumstances the way they are.
My lovely trip at the end of April may be on hold if we don’t get things back on track because well we will need the extra money to you know live. Well if you believe in prayer could really use some right now for me to become employed by Friday. I believe in miracles do you. I have gotten a job in a day before and an apartment but I leave that story for another post. He hasn’t let me down yet, I don’t believe he will this time either.
Thanks and God Bless