Okay I know, I am beginning to sound like a broken record but I have to remain in this mindset or I will not be able to believe that things are going to change. So here I go again on what seems like the never ending hunt for a job.
This week was a pretty productive week I had a face to face interview for manager trainee at a clothing store in a mall, yeah I don’t really want to do retail but you know what I am beginning to realize to borrow a line from the Rolling Stones ” You don’t always get what you want, you get what you need”. So I am putting myself for all positions above and below and believing that God is working on the situation and that his timing is perfect.
That there is the job out there that I am meant to do for this season and right now getting the perfect job is always in the back of the head and I know it will happen. It just might not happen right at this very minute, but that everything may be lining up for something to happen down the line.
So face to face went well and I was supposed to find out today and I am guessing from the lack of a phone call that I didn’t get that. Oh well, next.
Then I had a pre-screen interview (an interview before the face to face/to weed you out) over the phone with another great opportunity that would allow me to learn more about the way that financial planning works without the added pressure of actually having to reach quotas or targets. As I would be the receptionist at this company and have the opportunity to receive additional training/certificates in the services that they offer. It went really well but I won’t find out for another 2 weeks if I even qualify for a face to face interview and then another week before I find out if I got a job. 3 weeks is to long to wait so that opportunity is on the back burner. Not closing the door to it, but not waiting around for it either.
So I did that normal routine of job search, but I decided to contact some old contacts and see what options they might have for me. Have an appointment with my former employer counselor next week to see if she can help me.
I also heard back from my new employment agency that I was hired at a couple of weeks ago, she wanted to know if I would be interested in a temp position for a month or more at two offices and of course because I am remaining open to all possibilities I told her to go ahead. Even if it is only for a month it will bring some money in to pay the bills because as of right now we are living off of mom’s money because I have not had a pay check since March. Also the way I am looking at it is I can get my foot in the door to either of these organizations who knows where that might lead.
So as you can see many possibilities and until I am told otherwise I have a good feeling about these ones. There is also the long shot still of hearing back from the census and working there for 3months they told me I might not hear till end of month and there are still a lot of days left in this month, so there is that hope.
I am just trying really hard to remain hopeful/positive about my circumstances. I have over and over again stated that if I don’t have a job by X then I am just going to go get a minimum wage job, but every time I say that I get a phone call of hope around the corner so if I don’t hear anything from my placement agency on whether I got a temp placement by next week then minimum it is.
So that is the professional front, now onto the other fun part of my life my health or more clearly my weight/cleanse.
Unfortunately due to finances I had to stop the cleanse for the time being till I have the money to continue on the system which sucks because I was really starting to notice a difference. You can definitely see a difference in my body. I have been trying on my summer clothes and yeah things fit looser, or just fit better and it’s a great feeling. I also started to exercise more regularly my next door neighbor “M” and I have been going for walks downtown and walking all around the neighborhood. The only bad thing about that is she walks around and looks at the restaurants and says “we should try that one, and eat there. Defeating the whole purpose of walking in the first place.
The first day this week we walked all over but stopped and shared a A&W burger and fry. The second time we walked was for the intention of having crepes at this amazing little cafe. If we can take the food out of the equation we might actually get somewhere.
It just truly reminds me how out of touch with my body I have gotten. I used to walk everywhere, heck I used to bike to work at one point. I just stopped caring and started making excuses, too tired, too busy, no money etc. Well this year is going to be different I am going to get outside as much as I can and get active, because now that I am doing it I love it and I really don’t want to stop. That is what the head is saying the body on the other hand is “screaming what the heck are you trying to do to me, kill me”.
I already have war wounds from my endeavors this week my feet are covered in blisters and my legs have been sore since my first walk. However we are planning on doing this every 2nd day till it gets too hot to walk because we use it to catch up and hang out and to just get outside and enjoy the gorgeous weather and the city we live in.
So tomorrow’s agenda is a resume blitz there is at least 15 jobs that I can apply for. I no longer look at the no’s as rejection of me but more as that is just another job that wasn’t right for me and God knew so he closed the door. When you go about life like that it makes it easier to swallow, the realist in me is having an extremely difficult time with this because the facts say that there is only X number of days left in this month and sooner then later my landlord is going to get annoyed with the situation and the bills still need to be paid etc. I have to stop talking like that because it doesn’t help me, and I am doing all I can to get a job, so I just have to believe that the timing will click. I have to truly live one day at a time, right now and stop focusing on the “what if’s”, easier said then done.
So thats where things stand right now, my gut is telling me that it’s coming to the end, the struggles, the difficulties etc. That things will work out.
Thank you and God Bless
My mantra for this month is ” I believe that God is working!!!”