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Fall Back and Change..

Okay so I hadn’t realized how long it’s been since I posted on here and I know if you’ve been following me and my journey.

I have a tendency to drop off the radar for months at a time and make promises to myself about being more consistent in my blogging well here we go again.

It’s been 4 months since I blogged anything of real information about my life and what I’ve been doing with it well that is going to change..  You see I made the mistake no not really a mistake the decision to hand out my business card with my blog address on it.   When I made them I was using them as my mini resume so they have tons of crowded information..   Maybe no one will read it,  but just in case some of the beautiful ladies I told about me (and my lovely journey) will like to see something up to date.

So here it is we fell back today you know got our extra hour of sleep, well some of us did.  I didn’t my body still thinks it’s yesterday and I got my 7 hrs so instead of playing a game or surfing the internet I have all this information and words that needs to get out so I figured I would get them out here before my head explodes.

Just a point form update for now and we’ll do more in-depth analysis on the last couple of months in the upcoming week.  Ready Set Go..

*Still working (yeah for me my year and a half anniversary is next month on the fourth), I have my first review for a raise and promotion(praying) next week.

*Still living in the same apartment (trying to change that circumstances require, more on that later this week)

* Still in debt but I’m making headway there meaning it’s going down slowly but surely.

*Still overweight but I’m still down the 40lbs I lost last year I only gain 5 pounds give or take.

*Still on Isagenix, love it had to not cleanse due to being on Antibiotics and steroids(asthma) for a month or so, can’t wait till November 6th to get back to it.

*Still not exercising bought myself an xbox in January was using it pretty steady then summer hit and my apartment became an oven, work got busy, (life got in the way), I got sick (starting making excuses) and I stopped now it’s freezing so perfect for workout sessions so I’m getting back into that this month.   I’m loving how I’m feeling without the extra weight so If I can lose what I’ve lost without any major exercise then holy cow what will I achieve with it.

*Still have my kitty and she is so “Precious” (that’s sarcasm) more on her antics this week.  I promise I will not blog about her on a regular basis.. I love her, but she is not the focus of this blog, “I AM”.

*Still a Christian attending church regularly and if certain people in my circle get their wish, soon to be attending French services on Sunday morning, because were determined to get my French back and I’m almost there.. I’m starting to understand more fluently, just have to get up the courage to speak it more openly.

I love my church, so much so that I am now in charge of the “web presence” for it and look after Facebook  posting to radio stations about events, and soon twitter and when I get a Mac(apple)  the actual web page.  I also am the unofficial executive administrative assistant” (don’t get paid) do the minutes for our leadership meetings and am in leadership training.

*I’m working on growing my business finally, after many starts and stops.  First official step towards that happened this weekend.. I was always sharing my business with people but I wasn’t actively working on it.  It was more like a pray and see kinda thing..  Now it’s not ..  I invested in the women’s show in my town and it was a great experience I am totally comfortable now in sharing our products and ready to change lots of people lives for the good…

*Finally I have an opportunity coming up to share a special occasion with people that I love and who have been so instrumental in the person I’ve grown into in the past 2 years.   More on that this week as well..  lets just put it this way I’m so excited..

So in finishing as you can see a lot of exciting things on the horizon it can only get better from here for me.  For other people in my inner circle well lets just say (without going to details and a big reason as to why I stopped blogging),  so much of my life I was afraid to share in the fear of who would be reading you know the people I know “in real life”.  but I’m tired of closing myself off if I need to share I’m going to share if I don’t want my “in real life”  friends and family to know what I’m talking about I’ll just make the post private..   This is my outlet to get my pent up emotions and feelings out shutting down the writer in me is not good for my spirit or my body.. I need to do this not only for who maybe reading, but for myself.

So once again I am back for how long and for how consistent I don’t know but I’m going to do my best to keep consistent and keep this thing more regular just in case my words are encouraging you in your own journey..

Take Care and God Bless

Tina Marie



More possibilities around the corner

Okay I know, I am beginning to sound like a broken record but I have to remain in this mindset or I will not be able to believe that things are going to change.  So here I go again on what seems like the never ending hunt for a job.

This week was a pretty productive week I had a face to face interview for manager trainee at a clothing store  in a mall, yeah I don’t really want to do retail but you know what I am beginning to realize to borrow a line from the Rolling Stones ” You don’t always get what you want, you get what you need”.  So I am putting myself for all positions above and below and believing that God is working on the situation and that his timing is perfect.

That there is the job out there that I am meant to do for this season and right now getting the perfect job is always in the back of the head and I know it will happen.  It just might not happen right at this very minute, but that everything may be lining up for something to happen down the line.

So face to face went well and I was supposed to find out today and I am guessing from the lack of  a phone call that I didn’t get that.  Oh well, next.

Then I had a pre-screen interview (an interview before the face to face/to weed you out) over the phone with another great opportunity that would allow me to learn more about the way that financial planning works without the added pressure of actually having to reach quotas or targets.  As I would be the receptionist at this company and have the opportunity to receive additional training/certificates in the services that they offer.  It went really well but I won’t find out for another 2 weeks if I even qualify for a face to face interview and then another week before I find out if I got a job.  3 weeks is to long to wait so that opportunity is on the back burner.  Not closing the door to it, but not waiting around for it either.

So I did that normal routine of job search, but I decided to contact some old contacts and see what options they might have for me.  Have an appointment with my former employer counselor next week to see if she can help me.

I also heard back from my new employment agency that I was hired at a couple of weeks ago, she wanted to know if I would be interested in a temp position for a month or more at two offices and of course because I am remaining open to all possibilities I told her to go ahead.  Even if it is only for a month it will bring some money in to pay the bills because as of right now we are living off of mom’s money because I have not had a pay check since March.  Also the way I am looking at it is I can get my foot in the door to either of these organizations who knows where that might lead.

So as you can see many possibilities and until I am told otherwise I have a good feeling about these ones.  There is also the long shot still of hearing back from the census and working there for 3months they told me I might not hear till end of month and there are still a lot of days left in this month, so there is that hope.

I am just trying really hard to remain hopeful/positive about my circumstances.  I have over and over again stated that if I don’t have a job by X then I am just going to go get a minimum wage job, but every time I say that I get a phone call of hope around the corner so if I don’t hear anything from my placement agency on whether I got a temp placement by next week then minimum it is.

So that is the professional front, now onto the other fun part of my life my health or more clearly my weight/cleanse.

Unfortunately due to finances I had to stop the cleanse for the time being till I have the money to continue on the system which sucks because I was really starting to notice a difference.  You can definitely see a difference in my body.  I have been trying on my summer clothes and yeah things fit looser, or just fit better and it’s a great feeling.  I also started to exercise more regularly my next door neighbor “M” and I have been going for walks downtown and walking all around the neighborhood.  The only bad thing about that is she walks around and looks at the restaurants and says “we should try that one, and eat there.  Defeating the whole purpose of walking in the first place.

The first day this week we walked all over but stopped and shared a A&W burger and fry.  The second time we walked was for the intention of having crepes at this amazing little cafe.  If we can take the food out of the equation we might actually get somewhere.

It just truly reminds me how out of touch with my body I have gotten.  I used to walk everywhere, heck I used to bike to work at one point.  I just stopped caring and started making excuses, too tired, too busy, no money etc.  Well this year is going to be different I am going to get outside as much as I can and get active, because now that I am doing it I love it and I really don’t want to stop.  That is what the head is saying the body on the other hand is “screaming what the heck are you trying to do to me, kill me”.

I already have war wounds from my endeavors this week my feet are covered in blisters and my legs have been sore since my first walk.  However we are planning on doing this every 2nd day till it gets too hot to walk because we use it to catch up and hang out and to just get outside and enjoy the gorgeous weather and the city we live in.

So tomorrow’s agenda is a resume blitz there is at least 15 jobs that I can apply for.  I no longer look at the no’s as rejection of me but more as that is just another job that wasn’t right for me and God knew so he closed the door.  When you go about life like that it makes it easier to swallow, the realist in me is having an extremely difficult time with this because the facts say that there is only X number of days left in this month and sooner then later my landlord is going to get annoyed with the situation and the bills still need to be paid etc.  I have to stop talking like that because it doesn’t help me, and I am doing all I can to get a job, so I just have to believe that the timing will click.  I have to truly live one day at a time, right now and stop focusing on the “what if’s”, easier said then done.

So thats where things stand right now, my gut is telling me that it’s coming to the end, the struggles, the difficulties etc.  That things will work out.

Thank you and God Bless

Tina Marie.

My mantra for this month is ” I believe that God is working!!!”

I got a job!!! But do I want it?

Okay yeah I know I’ve been unemployed for a year and that this is the first break I have caught, but the reason behind that statement is that it wouldn’t really change anything in my life, would be making less $$ then previous job, I would still be at home, and it starts way too late.  So what do I do precede with it and if something better drops them or believe that it will all work out and this is what I am supposed to be doing?

I don’t know it was a really great interview if you would have asked me a year ago I probably would have jumped at the opportunity, but now I have been interviewed for some really great jobs and I hate to say it but the grass might be greener elsewhere and the start dates will be sooner.

This one doesn’t start training till May 11th that’s almost a full month past when I need to have money, am I so afraid of not having money that I said yes, right away, not I’ll think about it and get back to you but immediately it was like I was in a trance and didn’t even realize what was coming out of my mouth.  On the plus it is my mon-fri job and it won’t interfere with me having a life I’ll work from 10am to 7pm mon-fri.  So I will still have  a life and be able to go to bible study/church etc.  Also it pays more then minimum and it offers benefits and bonus so that’s good to and depending on the program the pay could change as well.

I think for now I’ll fill out the paperwork and keep applying and if something else pops up like I don’t know the full time job paying $20 an hour I’ll jump but in the meantime I finally have a safety net to fall back on.

That kind of feels good knowing that days of no money coming in are coming to an end very soon.

What would you do stick with the status quo, be grateful for any job right now, or hold out for something better.

Thank you and God Bless

Tina Marie.

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