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“PRICE TAG”

If you’re not being treated with love and respect, check your “Price Tag”. Perhaps you have marked yourself down. It is YOU who tells people your worth by what you accept. Get off the ‘Clearance Rack’ and get behind the glass where they keep all the VALUABLES. Bottom line is…VALUE yourself more! Re-post if you like..you might help someone get off the CLEARANCE RACK.

 

One of my fav’s that I’ve read.. Yep if you guessed I’m getting back on the blogging train I’ve missed it and I feel it is time to end my sabbatical and get back in the blogosphere so sometime this week expect a really long overdue update as to what’s been going on in Tina Marie’s life and mind.. Missed you all, well the one person that reads me..

 

Take Care and God Bless..

Tina Marie.

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It’s the End of the World As We Know It!!

Okay well if you can tell I am talking about the failed prediction of last week, by the way most Christians that I know/follow don’t believe in that theory at all in fact here is my Leader of my church response to May 21st, 2011. ( Borrowed the title from a song done by many artists but I know it from Great Big Sea).

“What a pile of rubbish! Judgment and the end of the world May 21. What hog-wash! Read Matthew 24. People who are not saved or maybe saved, but don’t know their Bibles spread trollop like this and make us look foolish. My advice: live like He would come at any moment . Oh yeh! And if you believe this rubbish please rush over to my house and give me your money before you go :).”  Hazel Hill

So although we don’t know when it will occur with this idea coming up it definitely makes us more conscious of the live we have lived thus far and what changes if any need to be done in the upcoming years to come.

I mainly reflected on how I have treated people.  Have I been following the commandments and decrees set before me am I walking in Love towards those that have hurt me.  I feel that I have some work to do in this area but that I am doing it to the best of my knowledge right now.

Also being reflective it just makes you think what would you do if you knew the time and point at when you would go to be with God.  Would you live your life differently then how you are now, what would you say.  I was thinking about this before from an episode of How I met your Mother called Bad News where someone close them dies and they reflect on their “Last Words”.

What would your last words be?  Mine have always been “I love You”.  My family always makes it a point to say that often sometimes it’s several times a day.  I hear it many times from my mom she says it to me when I go out the door, if I talk on the phone to her when I get home and always before I/she go to bed.   Why because you just never know when the last time will be and you should take every opportunity to let someone know how you feel just in case it’s the last.  So no matter what is going on in our lives or how we feel about each other we always end our conversations with love.

My dad started this, okay it’s always been there but it really became a rule when my ma-mere passed away.  Long story short my dad has been involved in a feud with his sisters for pretty much most of his adult life since his father passed away and they weren’t on speaking terms when my ma-mere got sick.  Instead of honouring her wishes of seeing my father they decided that he didn’t deserve to be there and although she lived for 2 weeks in intensive care my father didn’t get to say good bye to her or that he loved her, so now he makes it a point and we all do to say how we feel, even if we are not really feeling like it at the time.

Anyways this week teaches us that we don’t know when our time is up and no matter what your beliefs are you can’t get this life back.  Once this life is over, it’s over so what do you want your life to be about, what’s your legacy for this world.

I am beginning to realize that I have wasted a lot of my life on useless things and realize that it’s not all about me and so my next part of my life is going to be less about me and more about others.

I have a real drive for issues involving poverty, I just don’t feel like it should be an issue in this day and time that people should not be living in the conditions that they do when there are so many riches in this world.  So I want to devote more time to that once I am back in a position that I can do more.

Also being a Christian I want to do more to share my faith because I believe and you might not share this belief that there is one God and when we die if were saved we go to be with Him and if not well you go somewhere else and I want people to know this more.  So I have decided to be more open with my faith and the first step is me blogging about it.  I have begun to show my faith on Facebook  and now I will be starting at least once a week or so talking about issues of faith with my readers.

The other thing that I have decided I want to do is be more open and less afraid so that means going public, first step to this is posting my updates on Facebook and showing my face.  There are two reasons for this one because I may help people in my circle if I would be less afraid of what they think and two because in order for me to be successful in some of my ideas for my life I need to be seen and have an identity online.  So right now I am still blogging for me but more and more people are reading it and I think it’s good if they know and can see who they are reading about.  Who knows where it can lead.   This is my ministry and I intend on using it to all of it’s abilities.

Okay so that’s my view on the end of the world.. It didn’t happen so we can go on living, hopefully more conscious of how we are living it and what we want our life to be about.

Thank you and God Bless

Tina Marie.

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Weekend Mission: Eradicate weevils and other updates

Update time:

Well since we last talked I believe I mentioned that I got a temp job for the rest of the week well that has since been extended to include an additional week possibly two.  Yeah this means that I will have my rent money and shock of all shocks I will be able to pay some bills.  As per norm not giving up and by no means am ready to settle.  This job is relatively easy mentally, not extremely stressful but I am not sure if I am up to the challenge physically which is why I have only agreed to it temporarily and am continuing to pray that I hear back from an office position soon.

This week was extremely productive for me and had some surprises as well it felt great to get back out there and have something to do on a daily basis I really do like working, I forgot how much I did.  But once I was back out there in public and socializing with coworkers and clients it felt great.  I love having a purpose for waking up.  I have enjoyed my time off got a lot of things accomplished and sometimes feel like I should have used my time more wisely but the things I did do this year  helped my relationships grow, and my self to be more ready for what is coming up in the years to come.

Okay so what happened this weekend:

Well I had a leadership meeting for my church on Saturday with an amazing couple of men from Continuum Ministries, (check them out they have an amazing story too long to put here, but the gist of it is this)  25 years or so ago Al Purvis and his Wife decided that they were going to do mission work and they decided on Thailand because of all the orphans that were left in the wake after the Vietnam War.  So they moved there with their 3 children and opened an orphanage where they preceded to adopt over 20 children and grow an international ministry.  Amazing inspiring organization and people.  Every time I meet someone from my church family I am continually amazed at how down to earth these people are even though they are doing tremendous work and in some cases extremely wealthy.   I always feel like although I am not doing what they are that we are still on the same level and that is a great feeling to have towards your leaders.

So Al spoke on leadership and the role we should have in Ministry and in life it was great and as per norm I took tons of notes.  The main thing that I took from it is that leaders have to allow the people that they choose to put in roles perform their roles without interference from yourself.  In other words if  you trust your people to do the job that you put them into, let them do it and don’t micromanage them well they are.  Defeats the purpose of appointing and delegating roles within your life/company.  There is lots that was learned but that is the main one and one that I have had great difficulty in many of my jobs is managers that don’t know how to let go and let the people that they have hired do the job they were hired to do.

After the meeting we had a barbecue first one of the spring/summer for me and some fellowship/socializing where we sang songs and chatted it was great to get out and be among friends doesn’t happen a lot for me so when I can I enjoy it.

That was Saturday morning early afternoon.  The rest of my afternoon was to be spent cleaning my room okay demolishing my room and vacuuming everything my bed all parts etc.  Why you ask well about a week or so ago I noticed this little bugs crawling on my walls and my bed and it was annoying me so I looked it up on the lovely internet and found out they were harmless to humans but do like to live in food (like wheat), they were weevils.  So my mission for Saturday afternoon was to eradicate the weevils from my room so I could stop feeling like they were crawling on me.  Which they have been several times this week.  So I moved my bed out took the linens off vacuumed the mattress, the box spring the frame, the hot water rad, baseboards and washed the walls.

I was in the process of doing this, looking like crap and we get a lovely unexpected surprise my bro who lives several hours away (4 to be exact) is in town and is wondering if we want to spend time with the kids.  So of course because me and mom haven’t seen the kids since Jan. We definitely did not want to miss that opportunity, so eradicating weevils was put on hold for a couple of hours well I visited with my niece and nephews (only 3 of them were with him so I will have to wait to see my other 2 nieces for another time).  It was a quick visit (2 Hrs) but sometimes that is all you truly need to catch up and show some love and at one point my 7 year old nephew was helping me with my room.  Mom took them to the park, bro showed up then they were gone it was short but it made mom’s year.  She is extremely close to her grandchildren and usually sees them at least once a month, and has never missed a birthday till this year.  With me not working the money wasn’t there for her go as often so she’s been missing them as much as they have been missing us.

So they left and I was back on my mission got that completed, sort of then spent the rest of the evening talking with my mom till we realized that my bed still wasn’t together so she helped me do that.  I love my room now it’s so bright pics to come because my bedroom is not completely done and I am too ashamed for before pics because it looks like a tornado hit but after definitely coming.

Sunday was my disconnect from the world day but I cheated a bit by watching an amazing series online from Northpoint ministries on Love, Sex and Dating from a Christian viewpoint and has inspired my post about my faith this week.. I have been prompted to write it but am afraid because it’s an extremely personal one for me but the way I am looking at is if I can talk about my money and my depression and my self esteem/weight issues oh and my unemployment then I should also be able to share my faith in whatever aspect that may be.  They are all parts of me and I promised that I would not censor myself on this blog and hide who I am so I am going to be completely honest on the post about my choices on how I live my life in relation to Love, Sex, and Dating.

So the rest of the day was spent reading and getting ready for church, went to church came home and talked with mom again.  Today I have spent most of the day vegging, for some reason I like cleaning in the evening so I will blog for afternoon then I will clean (fold clothes/laundry) in the evening and get ready for my temp job tomorrow 6am comes early.

So I will try to update you through the week as usual continue to pray/keep me in your thoughts for me to gain stability in my finances/job/life.

Thank you and God Bless

Tina Marie

It’s spring here and I had a great day with my dad.

Yeah so you were probably expecting a great post about 7 Great things about me well I tried to write it for over an hour and a half and it’s not coming to me so I put it aside again for another day and will attempt to try again or maybe I’ll just save it for next week.

Today was a great day, I got out and about (it’s spring) and spent a pretty great day with my Dad.  After all that has happened in the world and in some of my friends life in general.  I was overjoyed to have the privilege to spend the day with Him (alone). I am learning that you truly don’t know when your time is up so enjoy the time you have and it sounds corny but love the ones your with.

Dad and I didn’t do anything extraordinary we went to our usual places.  Walmart (got some basics), Costco (shared a poutine), and then we went to the grocery store (where I didn’t get chicken) and the Taxation office.   Exciting right, not exactly but we got to look at and do stuff that we don’t get to do together very often since he lives out of town.

My dad has instilled his geeky vibe in me I am his daughter truly.  I love pretty much all the same things as him were both techies, with a love of sci fi and playing games, home improvement, architecture, home design, action movies, tv, cooking and music.  I probably started doing some of these activities to bond with Dad but over the years it has become my passion as much as his.  My dad is a little abnormal compared to my friends Dad’s.  He’s not very social tends to keep to himself, watching tv, playing games okay he is a complete homebody.  Sound familiar. We have a lot of the same social tendencies and deal with things in pretty much the same way by shutting down.  But he has always been there and at times he can be my greatest cheerleader which is exactly what I needed after this week.

I’m okay with my dad the way he is because I don’t think I could handle a loud obnoxious Dad who was an overachiever and never home.  My dad has always been there hence our regular shopping day.

We always peruse the same things flat screen tv’s, blue ray players, comforters, he patiently lets me look at clothes and shoes and I patiently wait well he dissects whether to buy the HDMI cables to stream his Netflix to his 50″ tv or to suck it up and spend way more money on either a blue ray or yikes a video game system.

The thing is besides groceries we never buy anything, we just window shop and analyze what we would do.

My dad takes me shopping (grocery) usually because well folks without a car it’s a lot easier to do them with Dad (he has a car) then to take the bus.  So I wait for dad to come to town and do the groceries with him.

I have a routine with him there and yes even though I am 34 yrs old I still let my Dad pick the meat and the melons if need be I ask him his opinion on just about everything not because I am needy or incapable, but because I like having my dad’s input and showing him that no matter how old I get his opinion will always matter.  I might not always follow it but it will always factor into my life.

After shopping, He then came to my apartment and tried to hook up my DVD player we had given to us after our other DVD player broke.  Through discovery we found out that didn’t work either, but that I had hooked up the other one right so yeah for me.  So now my collection of defunct electronics is growing and I seriously am at a loss of what to do with it that will be another issue for another day.   This is where you would usually ask your dad to do the heavy lifting and bring the stuff downstairs to the trash.  Well due to dad’s disability I’m actually stronger then him and that is not really saying much.  So I am stuck with all the electronics till I can kidnap my brother who also lives out of town to do a clean up for us.

I know my Dad doesn’t read this parents are aware of it but I have not yet been brave enough to tell them where it is which is strange considering I am pretty much an open book with them but this is all mine, for now.

Okay didn’t know where this was going, but I guess I just wanted to write about my great day with my Dad it will flowed off the fingers instead of the albatross of talking about great things about me.

thanks for letting me share that.  God Bless

Tina Marie.

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