Don’t despise small beginnings!

Okay so I’ve been absent a couple of days now just busy trying to get somewhere.  I have succeeded okay it’s only a small step but tomorrow will be the first time in a year where I will be working somewhere making actual money.  Yeah it’s a temp job for two days but it’s something and with the fact that I have had no income for 3 months a little bit is better than nothing.

So for the next two days I will be working temp at a job that I probably would have never thought of it wasn’t suggested by my temp agency.  It’s out of my comfort zone and it involves getting physical I’ll be working at a non profit sorting through clothing for sale.

I am both looking forward to it and terrified at the same time, I am excited that I will be getting back into the workforce again after a really long period away.  Also it’s great that it’s only for a couple of days to get my feet wet before I totally dive in.  I am terrified that this might be what I’m regaled to working, I like hard work just not sure if I can do physical work anymore I guess we will find out tomorrow.

I am still hoping that one of the other balls that I have in the air will drop and that this is the end of this struggle.  I am still believing that I will hear back from the other jobs with life changing pay scales and amazing challenging work.  Until then I will not despise small beginnings because every little bit of money made is going to help in paying the bills.  I will do what I have to do not what I want to do till then.

As of right now my finances are in a tailspin by the time I do get solid steady pay checks I will be seriously screwed financially I am behind on pretty much every bill I have.  I was caught up and staying on top of things but now I am falling behind.  My repaired credit will be in toilet as well.  That’s okay because I know that once I am making steady pay checks if I put my nose to the pavement then it will all fall into line sooner then later.

I am just seriously wanting the sooner.  So I will try to stay in the loop I have some ideas in my head that need to get out, I am just trying to figure out how to put my scrambled emotions/beliefs/opinions into words so I apologize in advance if I seem like I’m spaced out and talking generic and using meme/getting to know you entries over the next couple of weeks.

Thanks for your patience, prayers and positive thoughts, God Bless

Tina Marie